soon.

Dear Lilly,
 Your birthday is soon...and with every passing moment, I dread it even more. And on top of all the other feelings that have taken over...I feel guilt. Guilt because we won't be here on your birthday. I won't be able to visit the cemetary on your birthday. Daddy and I thought it would be best if we go out of town.
 We're going to the beach for 5 days. I think it will be good. I hope it will be good. But I still feel guilty. Guilty that I won't be here...that I won't be coming to "see" you.
 Don't think for a second that we won't be thinking about you, sweet girl. Even now, almost a year later... we miss you with ever fiber of our being.
 You were and still are our world. We love you, forever.

Love,
 Mommy & Daddy